Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Day 2: You are not an accident.

I can’t really get my head around the whole “head of a pin” (anyone remember that movie reference?) theory of how God planned each of us and our lives in advance. Too deep for me so I just decided to quit trying to understand the how and just go with it. I do, however, believe that we were all created by God and it does provide a great comfort knowing that we were planned and God had a purpose for each of us. Just as I struggle to get my head around God’s grand plan, I also struggle with the opposite theory that we are all just random people living random lives day to day. Just like watching an anthill of nameless, faceless ants. The thought that if one of us jumped off a bridge today, it would not have an effect on anything or anyone. The anthill would just adjust for one less worker and life would go on. This is a scary and sad way to go through life. Many people think that believing in God is just our (us humans) way of dealing with this harsh reality of life so that we can make it through the difficult times of life.

The author writes “God made you so he could love you”. This reference I understand. It is just the way I think of my kids. I had them so I could love them and I will always love them.

The question to consider today is: “I know that God uniquely created me. What areas of my personality, background, and physical appearance am I struggling to accept?” I don’t think I am struggling to accept myself. Sure… I wish I wasn’t quite so tall. I wish I could lose 20 pounds. I wish my skin was clearer and my hair thicker. But these issues don’t keep me from accepting myself. I come from pretty good stock and have had a good education. I have a loving husband and wonderful children. My problem is not necessarily accepting myself but accepting others – other people who have been cruel or unkind to me. Sometimes, that is difficult to understand.

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